
W e d n e s d a y , O c t o b e r 2 5 , 2 0 1 7
To the guy who was once my universe
08
I'm already at peace
in my own solar system
but I found myself
writing a letter for the guy
who was once my universe.
Dear you,
I stayed adrift with the celestial bodies for weeks.
there are times
where I would force myself to be in a black hole
and there, I would drown myself in my own tears.
You were my universe
but you didn't consider me as part of
your galaxies and your solar system
I've tried so hard to fit into the likes of you
but you never considered me.
Or maybe you did?
But it was written in the stars that you
would never love me the way I loved you
Many times I asked myself,
just like in movies, "Am I not enough?"
I pretended to be a star, a planet and even a galaxy
when in reality I am just a speck of dust in this vast universe.
Dear you,
I think of you as my greatest love even though back then,
I have no idea what it is.
I think of you as my greatest love
because back then,
I was naive and I was foolish.
I think of you as my greatest love
because back then,
you gave me a definition for it.
I've grown just enough and I've already learned the things about love.
and sometimes,
I would regret learning it.
It was more fun and memorable whenever I try new things.
but I guess it's also written in the stars
that time will come,
where I'd fall out of love.
and if that time would come,
I'll fall out of love but I still can't consider
another man to be my universe.
I sugarcoated my pain
so that the people
wouldn't be scared to love.
Today, I can see how happy you are because I know that you still love a girl whose traits and qualities are so close with mine.
Where did I go wrong? I don't know.
I stared at stars for a very long time.
Ah, I was so much better then but you chose to love a dead star.
Oh right! I remembered, you see me as a dust not a star.
Hate this fate,
it was really meant to be unconditional love.
Nevertheless,
I'm so happy for the two of you
because even if she's a dead star,
you see her as your Alpha Canis Majoris.
I adore the girl for making you whipped,
maybe you fell inlove with her
when she started drawing constellations in the sky.
but that's the thing
that I have failed to do.